Changing Times, the Universe and Friends

Last Friday, I found exactly what I needed: friends to help me through some inner difficulties with life, relationship, finance and most of all, change. I used to find going to the clubs and bars exciting and entertaining, never frowning an invitation from friends. Seeing new faces and loud noise was a good thing. I am changing and more selective in where I go to and the places I like. I feel too that I am moving into a more commercial realm, where I am more keen to know that my art and photography is reaching the right audiences, the 'right' people. The notion is elitist: hate that! But it appears that that is the way it is going. Picasso once said that the most difficult thing is trying to retain the child in you. I believe that what he was meaning was more to do with creativity and always moving forward in art, in imagination, in concept. Freshness. Stagnation is exactly that, a killer. Many times, I feel as though I'm lazy, slouching around (on my newly uphostertered sofa), and just thinking. Oh, the couch potato in me is particularly strong. Mix that in with constantly feeling tired and exhausted and a guiltly mind set. At this spur-of-the-moment drinks and dinner with my friends, Irene asked me "What do you want to ultimately want to achive in life?". I answered with an explanation I heard on tv the night before, which explained that your childhood thinking (at age 7?) doesn't fundamentally change or alter in life, no matter how old you are later in life, no matter what your surroundings are. Irene understood. But she also confirmed my direction that it is going along the path that it is meant to be: art and photography. I felt better, but well knowing that my life direction flowing with the waters and the swirling of the Universe. It's all too new age. My other concern related on a financial level to which Irene just said was the easy part. Honestly, and to her surprise, I am not a financial wizard. I earn money. I spent it. I don't usually know how much I have in my account. But what sort of mystifies me is how I instinctively know I have X amount of dollars to blow my money on, as in a sub-woofer (see my earlier blog) or a computer, or a holiday to Thailand or otherwise. Oh yes, I almost forgot: I'm psychic.